29/06/2021
“Dare to fail, for you will find yourself.” A quote I gift to you from another of my 7yrs lessons.
Shame. I believe not one person reading this finds joy and victory in shame. I’m never a believer of using shame to bring out a person’s potential. My heart aches at the unspoken mental pressures people face, often fighting their battles alone in their own dark corner.
When I was in my 2nd year, my ability to withstand shame and self worth was put to test. Where I used to work at, if you did zero sale for the month, the stage is yours. So one fine month, I came to a crossroad. To stay zero or force a sale - either people I’ve met will be pushed to a sale or make a sale from myself so I won’t end the month with zero. Honestly, much as my beliefs are firm, I almost succumbed to ‘save my own dignity’. Guess which I chose?
The Bible says “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."
So my choice led me to stand in front of the whole organisation, and was posted this question: “Come, share with us, how did you successfully end the month with zero?”. Like I said, the stage was mine. Thinking back, I was shaking inside while trying my best to embrace my vulnerability facing the crowd.
I believe it was done with good intentions because, perspectives. Was there a tinge of taunting? Shame? Gaslighting? I’m not sure honestly, but I'm very sure, this story gave me a right to teach someone in future; to know your worth. To guard your mental health. To not allow someone else’s misaligned method of pushing your limits to question your abilities and your sanity. To learn to discern words spoken at you. That nurturing does not begin with shame nor manipulation. It may otherwise destroy a totally bright young individual.
I wish I can start a movement to advocate human rights. You humans are too precious. My wish for you stays the same - that you grow and discover how to live a life, larger than life it self. Love. Joy. Peace. Patience. Kindness. Goodness. Faithfulness. Gentleness. Self-control. Freedom. Abundance. You deserve these!