29/07/2023
After posting about my unfortunate Grab experience, I got mix feedback, but mostly empathetic and understanding.
There are few bashers and inconsiderate people who either called me a-hole, "nagiinarte", "paawa", quite alarming how "talamak" discrimination with regards to mental illness. I don't want this condition, I will work 24/7 if only my mental condition will be casted out of my system. I am tired drinking 4 kinds of meds since 2019, seeing my psych and be afraid when my next attack will be. So tired to hide my condition from employers, afraid they may kick me out of work, afraid that my next bout of attack will cost me my source of living, afraid that my friends will ridicule me, afraid that next month I don't have the means to buy those meds anymore that will end in those dark gruesome self hurting and death ideation.
Though I dont like my disability, I have a choice. I want to be an instrument of change. I want my voice be heard and be treated like an individual, broken by thriving.
But I can only pour from my cup, contents may be bitter at times, but willing to share. To those who rally the battle with me, kudos!
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